Driving

 I passed my drivers test and I'm sooooo happy!! 

It feels so freeing on a way. I no longer have to plan everything with the mind set of "when does the bus go?" HURRAY!! 

I don't have much else to say at this point just wanted to share my joy with you :)

My summer will now be filled with road trips! :)  

Until next time, Love CJ

SUMMER

I have a little hippie deep down inside me and every summer I let that bitch come out!

Every summer I let parts of me, that I keep down to a minimum the rest of the year, come out. During the winter I get VERY cold - and I mean VERY VERY COLD- so when sumer finally comes around I like to come out of my little winter hibernation (yes, I did google the spelling on that word) and actually have some fun.

For me winter fashion is  thick clothing with more clothing underneath, gloves, a hat and really thick boots. All I really need is to stay as warm as I possibly can, I go into "surviver mode" - at least that's what me and my family call it. In my family there is a lot of people who deal very well with the cold, leaving me, my aunt and my grandfather freezing for approximately 9 months of the year (I am including fall and parts of spring into the category of "winter" here). Personally I have about 5-6 blankets to wrap my self into and I practically live in them at times.

I know what some of you might be thinking.. "This can't be true, you can't be that cold" WELL I AM! To give you an example of just how cold I get sometimes, I once got dressed to go to school next to a electric oven whilst blow drying my clothes before I put them on and then I wrap myself in my comforter/duvet or whatever you wanna call it and sat down next to the fireplace for a good 15-20 minutes before I did anything else. I get very cold.

BUT these horrible months are now behind me and SUMMER is on it's way. I have put away all that heavy and warm clothing and pulled out my shorts and tops, feather necklaces and headbands (That's the inner hippie I was talking about earlier. Oh and just a quick question: is it just me or does spring and summer have a really good effect on the mood. I just feel so much happier when the sun is out and it's actually warming my skin.  Thankfully the warm weather as come to us already, and I can sleep with a shirt and shorts instead of fleece. Yes, I sleep with fleece when it is cold.

I am very excited for the summer to really set in and to create some really good memories before I leave for North Dakota in August!
Hop that you guys have had a great spring so far!:)

Until Next Time, Love CJ

So many "feels"

Yesterday I packed up all of my stuff, washed my room and the kitchen ( my parts of the apartment) and got my butt in the car and drove back home..

It is so surreal that a year has passed! All of yesterday I cleaned and place and it was not until I had to say goodbye to everyone that it really hit me and the tears came running down my cheeks. It was like someone turned on a faucet. I couldn't stop crying for my life. I took a round to say goodbye to some people that I only know a bit and then it was time to say by to the " Mah people" I sat in the hallway of my building for 15-20 minutes with one whilst waiting for three others. When they showed up I started crying again (I Had managed to stop for almost 10 minutes at this point), and as it was not enough that I was crying, my friend almost started to cry because I was crying. It was a very emotional day. 

During the whole "I gotta clean EVERYTHING, EVEN THE WALLS" mentality that I had in mind the entire day, I was excited. I mean yes it was very sad to leave, but I know that I will see some of them again and that's very comforting. But at the same time this means that the next stop is America! I am very excited and I have decided on what school I'm going to as well. It's in North Dakota, which is on the border to Canada but I don't mind even though I don't deal well with the cold.. Some of my friends from school are also going to North Dakota so I'll see them again!

But I gotta go, so freaking much to unpack.... Someone should really invent a robot to do this kind of stuff for us

Until Next Time, CJ

Saying Goodbye

On Friday my stuff will be gone. Some of the funniest, smartest and sweetest people I know will be gone. We are all leaving this place to start somewhere else and we all have something to look forward to, but that does not mean it won't hurt to say goodbye.

I hate saying goodbye. I prefer to say "see you soon" because that mean that I'll see you again. But there are a lot of really good people here that I probably never see again unless it is by coincidence or a reunion of some sort. For the past year I have leaned so many new things from these people. I have learned to open up about my opinions, to be proud of where I'm from and who I am. I don't feel that I need to hide what has happened in the past and that whatever did happened doesn't have to follow me now. 

It has been a wonderful 8 months and I am so happy to have gotten to know all those people from all kinds of different backgrounds. Of course there are some people that I'll keep in touch with and that I'll see them again in the near future. I know that I have made some really good friends here and I have met people that I have more in common with that I have with many of my older friends. I have gained some good ones and lost some that I can do well without.

There will probably be many tears on Thursday at the "goodbye barbecue" but at the same time I know that it will be a lot of fun as well! Can't wait to start fresh!

Until Next Time, Love CJ

When Stress Takes Over

Finals week is approaching rapidly and the stress is taking over my body and brain like never before. It feels paralyzing. 

When I came back from school after easter break, I could not get myself to do anything. I didn't want to clean, cook a real meal and least of all do my homework. I just layed in bed with my dog and watch House season after season eventually falling asleep. It has been a long time since I felt like that. I didn't care about anything for a few days and I liked it. Sometimes everything becomes very overwhelming and my mind and body needs to do nothing. All I can think about it that next week is finals week and 4 days after that I am moving back home for a few months before I leave for USA.

I can't believe that my freshman year of college is soon over! Time really has flow by, and yes(!) I know that sounds unbelievably cheese and cliché but sometimes that is the only way to describe things. When finals are over I only have a few days left here before I move back home until August and then it's over. I can't wrap my mind around it! 

So.. As of today I have three days of school left. Two presentations, one research paper and two exams left and I'll be done with my freshman year! I can't think of anything else to say right know,  stunned. 

Until next time, Love CJ