Life now

Everything has changed. Some days I'm high up in the sky, and so happy. Other days I'm so sad all I wanna do is be alone and watch sad movies on Netflix. 

Today was one of those days. A day where I didn't get out of bed before 11.15. A day where I forgot my things all over the room and I feel bad for my roommate because we both are usually pretty tidy and clean. I'm tired all the time lately. I don't know why..   I go to bed at a normal hour, get 8 hours of sleep. It might just be the food I eat i guess. Whatever..

But then there I days where I'm happy, where my classes are interesting and I meet more new people. I get things done and my homework is a breeze. I'm so happy, life is exciting and good!

But what is the bad days outweigh the good..? then what?

Until Next Time, Love CJ 

Arrival day

I wrote this a few weeks ago, but I never posted it. So sorry! I'm really gonna try to be better now that I've settled in at my dorm and everything. Thank you! :) 

I started my day like another. I took a shower, got dressed went to hang out with a friend. When I came back home I zipped up my suitcase, grabbed my carry-on bag and drove to the airport, and unlike any other time I have EVER gone to the airport, this time I’m not coming back until december. 

It all went well at the airport and I got to my flight in time. Now.. I had an 11 hour layover at JFK… 11 hours.. at night.. If only it had been during the day, I could’ve gone into the city. Lord knows I not gonna do that when it’s way past midnight, by myself. No thank you.  

So what I did was I wandered. back and forth and back and forth. I sat down at a diner at the airport terminal and charged my computer and phone, while I ate the most delicious mozzarella sticks I have ever had, all while desperately trying not to fall asleep… It was horrible! I have NEVER been so bored at an airport in my life... After 11 hours there I finally left for Minneapolis. I fell a sleep before the plane left the gate and 3 1/2 hours later I finally landed at st.paul airport, with all my luggage and I was about to get in a car with three strangers. My roommate, her mom and sister. Nothing scary.

We drop be straight to ikea,so I could got some stuff, like a duvet and a pillow and other small things that you don't care to pack in a suitcase that can only weigh about 40 pounds/ 20 kilo. We finally got everything we needed and left for my roommate's house just outside the city. It was so SURREAL! It's just like I've seen in movies and it was so exiting! Everything was interesting to look at, from how HUGE the roads were to how the houses were sat in a straight line to the next crossing. All i kept thinking was "This is all so American"  

Downtown Minneapolis

For the next few days I would a bit of jetlag, but nothing to bad. I won't bore you with those days because we really did not do much. I stayed at her house for three days before we packed up two cars and left for UND. I'll tell you about that later.

Until Next Time, Love CJ

YES! FINALLY!

The visa FINALLY arrived, and I got my plane ticket! Oh MY GOD I'm so freaking excited! 

Yesterday My mom walks in to my room with a big envelope in her hands, and I immediately know that its my passport with my visa!  Now I have my visa and my plane ticket to Minneapolis, MN!   I have started packing and my biggest struggle in life is packing everything into a suitcase that can only weigh  20 kilo...  If any of you have any tips feel free to share them!   I'm trying to pack as much as possible without packing the stuff that I can buy in America.. so far I think its all good.



 I will update you later but I really have to pack something...

Wish me luck!

Until Next Time, Love CJ.

Good morning from me to you

Hope you all have chill and wonderful Sunday :)

Until Next Time, Love CJ. 

A confused-controlfreak ( WARNING: This is a Rant)

Enrolment - classes - plane tickets - visa - embassay. All key words to describe my life right now, and frankly i find it to a lot to take in and understand.

I have never had to sign up for ALL of my classes before, they were all jut set up before I even got to school. This whole enrolment system they have set up is too confusing ( I might just be overthinking it) but my brain is not functioning enough to actually get it done.

Not only that, the other day I realised that I need insurance, I still haven't gotten my passport back from the Embassy and there I have not booked a plane ticket.  I WANNA SCREAM!!!!!!!

I am a control freak like no other. I will plan trips MONTHS ahead in time and still double check everything the day before I leave. I need it to go flawless and - effortlessly. No shit is going down when CJ travels!!

I NEED THIS TO HAPPEN - YESTERDAY

Urg...

Until Next Time, Love CJ

Working gal

Lately I have been so busy at work that all I do when I get home is eat and sleep only to wake up and go back to sleep because I have to go to work early the next day.... There have been days where I have been so freaking tired that I had to stop the car on my way home to close my eyes for a few minutes. Haven't felt like this since finals week... *queue the baaaaad memories*. 

HOWEVER I just had two wonderful days off! I just chilled with mah best friend Netflix and a bag of chips.  I went into town to hang out with a friends that just moved in to a new apartment and we went shopping and did what the summer vacation is supposed to be like.  It was soo great to just not have any obligations for just a few days.  I bought a new pair of jeans, an iPad mini ( which I'm super excited about!) and some sweaters.  

There isn't much else to tell you about. Nothing big is happening in my life right now.  But next week..!! :))

Until next time, Love CJ 

Roomate!!

I got in contact with my american roommate!

Is it weird that I'm excited! I have been wondering for weeks who the person that I will be sharing a room with was going to be, and when she send me and email last week I got so excited I ran out to the living room and jumped (Yes, it's how you imagine it).
 AND!!!!!!!!!!!

I finally got started on my visa application! I said to myself that when I got back from grandma's I could start the process to be sure that nothing had to happen while I was down there. It is a very boring and looooong process, but I'm sooo excited! I feel like this is actually happening now. Of course I have know that I'm moving and everything, but it just hasn't felt true at all.. like I've been imagining everything somehow, you know?


This is just a short little update, but better than radio silence ;)

Until Next Time, Love CJ

Up, up and down. Thankfully

We went paragliding, and I’m just gonna tell you this know: I HATE HIGHTS! A LOT! At the Alanya Kalesi there were walls and things that kept me form falling over, but when I’m strapped on to a huge "balloon" that’s not really a balloon… Ye NO!. I don't really likes boats either so this was pretty much my worst nightmare all wrapped up in one experience. 

I really do want to get over my completely irrational  fears of the ocean, small boats and hights - and elevators, but that's a different story - So I try to stand close to the edge when in tall buildings, and I go on the docks. I am getting better, but when I had to walk to the beach knowing that all three were waiting to take me away I was not a very happy person. Kaja tried to talk to me and all I could say was either yes, no and at one point I think I said " You can talk, but I'm not sure I'll remember anything of what you are talking about when this is over".So... Safe to say I was pretty much out of it. 

However - to my surprise -  it wasn't that bad. It was so quiet and calming in a way. 

How cool does that look!? On the boat that was pulling us, a guy was taking pictures all the time, so we could see them later and buy them. Some of the pictures turned out really good, I was impressed but there was also those pictures that I don't like as much, but they can't all be good right!. 

That's one think to check off the bucket list I guess.

Until Next Time, Love CJ. 

Alanya Kalesi

For almost two years I have wanted to visit the Alanya Kalesi. It lies at the very op of the city and at night the lights act like a guide from the city to it’s gates. Last time I visited my grandma - which I know know is Anneanne in Turkish - I looked over at the kalesi every night. I just thought that it looked so beautiful, and I felt the same this time. 

However!! This time I finally got to go up the hill and in to the Alanya Kalesi, and HOLY SHIT (excuse my language) I had no idea of the view from there! It is amazing!! 

This is me and Kaja at the top. She’s holding a GoPro camera so you can really see everything(Wide angle) I don't know how many pictures we took that day, but I could not look away. If you every find you self in Alanya, go to the Alanya Kalesi, it’s worth it. 

Until Next Time, Love CJ. 

TURKEY

In it's has been only a few days and so far I'm really enjoying this! I love the warm weather and it feels great to be back! Seeing my family again is also great and to hear all their stories. 

There is not much to tell except that Kaja has already got a pretty bad sunburn..

Until next time, Love CJ

TRAVELING

I am one of many (I assume) who loves to travel! It just so exciting and gives me such a thrill! 

To me traveling means that I get to meet knew people and get more experience in just how to be me. All the different and strange situations that add more to my personality. The things that I get too see helps me see things through other people eyes and to get this whole new perspective on so many things. Being surrounded by a different culture is so much fun, don’t you agree?

For my travels this summer I am going to Turkey to visit my Grandmother. I was there two years ago and I feel like I should go back this year, because I don’t know when I’ll be able to go back since I’m moving to the USA. To Turkey I’m bringing my very best friend Kaja. We leave early on Tuesday, and we have lots of plans to fill our days there. We're staying for two weeks so we have plenty of time so I do think that we will get it all done. She has never been to Turkey and I really hope that this trip will be fun for her.

It’s strange to think that this might be the last time is many years that I’ll be able to do this, so I plan to make the very best out of everything. Since I have been in the area prior to this trip I hope that I remember some of the roads and places still, but you never know.. If you don’t her from me in 2 weeks I’m probably lost in some alley with no food or passport. Feel free to send out a search party if so.

As I’m writing this I’m sitting on my butt at the airport floor waiting for time to pass.. We had to get here the evening before because we live in the middle of nowhere and it just made more sense to camp out at the airport since we have a early morning flight - AKA 7 FREAKING AM. But i’m ok.. can’t say the same for my ass tho… I swear if this floor is pushing my ass into my body right know.. and yes I am WAY to lazy to get up. 

Oh well, I still love to travel!! 

Until next time, Love CJ.

PS: Remember; Two weeks = Search Party

Driving

 I passed my drivers test and I'm sooooo happy!! 

It feels so freeing on a way. I no longer have to plan everything with the mind set of "when does the bus go?" HURRAY!! 

I don't have much else to say at this point just wanted to share my joy with you :)

My summer will now be filled with road trips! :)  

Until next time, Love CJ

SUMMER

I have a little hippie deep down inside me and every summer I let that bitch come out!

Every summer I let parts of me, that I keep down to a minimum the rest of the year, come out. During the winter I get VERY cold - and I mean VERY VERY COLD- so when sumer finally comes around I like to come out of my little winter hibernation (yes, I did google the spelling on that word) and actually have some fun.

For me winter fashion is  thick clothing with more clothing underneath, gloves, a hat and really thick boots. All I really need is to stay as warm as I possibly can, I go into "surviver mode" - at least that's what me and my family call it. In my family there is a lot of people who deal very well with the cold, leaving me, my aunt and my grandfather freezing for approximately 9 months of the year (I am including fall and parts of spring into the category of "winter" here). Personally I have about 5-6 blankets to wrap my self into and I practically live in them at times.

I know what some of you might be thinking.. "This can't be true, you can't be that cold" WELL I AM! To give you an example of just how cold I get sometimes, I once got dressed to go to school next to a electric oven whilst blow drying my clothes before I put them on and then I wrap myself in my comforter/duvet or whatever you wanna call it and sat down next to the fireplace for a good 15-20 minutes before I did anything else. I get very cold.

BUT these horrible months are now behind me and SUMMER is on it's way. I have put away all that heavy and warm clothing and pulled out my shorts and tops, feather necklaces and headbands (That's the inner hippie I was talking about earlier. Oh and just a quick question: is it just me or does spring and summer have a really good effect on the mood. I just feel so much happier when the sun is out and it's actually warming my skin.  Thankfully the warm weather as come to us already, and I can sleep with a shirt and shorts instead of fleece. Yes, I sleep with fleece when it is cold.

I am very excited for the summer to really set in and to create some really good memories before I leave for North Dakota in August!
Hop that you guys have had a great spring so far!:)

Until Next Time, Love CJ

So many "feels"

Yesterday I packed up all of my stuff, washed my room and the kitchen ( my parts of the apartment) and got my butt in the car and drove back home..

It is so surreal that a year has passed! All of yesterday I cleaned and place and it was not until I had to say goodbye to everyone that it really hit me and the tears came running down my cheeks. It was like someone turned on a faucet. I couldn't stop crying for my life. I took a round to say goodbye to some people that I only know a bit and then it was time to say by to the " Mah people" I sat in the hallway of my building for 15-20 minutes with one whilst waiting for three others. When they showed up I started crying again (I Had managed to stop for almost 10 minutes at this point), and as it was not enough that I was crying, my friend almost started to cry because I was crying. It was a very emotional day. 

During the whole "I gotta clean EVERYTHING, EVEN THE WALLS" mentality that I had in mind the entire day, I was excited. I mean yes it was very sad to leave, but I know that I will see some of them again and that's very comforting. But at the same time this means that the next stop is America! I am very excited and I have decided on what school I'm going to as well. It's in North Dakota, which is on the border to Canada but I don't mind even though I don't deal well with the cold.. Some of my friends from school are also going to North Dakota so I'll see them again!

But I gotta go, so freaking much to unpack.... Someone should really invent a robot to do this kind of stuff for us

Until Next Time, CJ

Saying Goodbye

On Friday my stuff will be gone. Some of the funniest, smartest and sweetest people I know will be gone. We are all leaving this place to start somewhere else and we all have something to look forward to, but that does not mean it won't hurt to say goodbye.

I hate saying goodbye. I prefer to say "see you soon" because that mean that I'll see you again. But there are a lot of really good people here that I probably never see again unless it is by coincidence or a reunion of some sort. For the past year I have leaned so many new things from these people. I have learned to open up about my opinions, to be proud of where I'm from and who I am. I don't feel that I need to hide what has happened in the past and that whatever did happened doesn't have to follow me now. 

It has been a wonderful 8 months and I am so happy to have gotten to know all those people from all kinds of different backgrounds. Of course there are some people that I'll keep in touch with and that I'll see them again in the near future. I know that I have made some really good friends here and I have met people that I have more in common with that I have with many of my older friends. I have gained some good ones and lost some that I can do well without.

There will probably be many tears on Thursday at the "goodbye barbecue" but at the same time I know that it will be a lot of fun as well! Can't wait to start fresh!

Until Next Time, Love CJ

When Stress Takes Over

Finals week is approaching rapidly and the stress is taking over my body and brain like never before. It feels paralyzing. 

When I came back from school after easter break, I could not get myself to do anything. I didn't want to clean, cook a real meal and least of all do my homework. I just layed in bed with my dog and watch House season after season eventually falling asleep. It has been a long time since I felt like that. I didn't care about anything for a few days and I liked it. Sometimes everything becomes very overwhelming and my mind and body needs to do nothing. All I can think about it that next week is finals week and 4 days after that I am moving back home for a few months before I leave for USA.

I can't believe that my freshman year of college is soon over! Time really has flow by, and yes(!) I know that sounds unbelievably cheese and cliché but sometimes that is the only way to describe things. When finals are over I only have a few days left here before I move back home until August and then it's over. I can't wrap my mind around it! 

So.. As of today I have three days of school left. Two presentations, one research paper and two exams left and I'll be done with my freshman year! I can't think of anything else to say right know,  stunned. 

Until next time, Love CJ

Love while you can and cherish your life

I was sitting at the office space where I work when something dawned on me, I've had this job for three years now!

Back in 2011 I was a 17 years old girl wanting money when my mother suggested that I should apply to a job where she worked, which was a home for the physically and mentally disabled adults. The job wasn't anything out of the ordanary for a 17 years old, just cleaning. So that's what I did. One morning I woke up early, got on a bus to get to my job interview. I don't think that I have ever been that nervous but thankfully the Boss-Lady was very nice and I ended up with the job. From june to August I cleaned every Monday to Thursday (Not as much fun as you might think during the hottest time of the year) and as school start was getting closer I thought that I'd had to find myself a new job.

WELL THAT DIDN'T HAPPEN! The Boss-Lady came up to me one day -as I was cleaning and sweating as a sexy little beast- and told me to come to her office. Naturally I thought that I had done something dumb, stupid or anything else that I could get in trouble for, but no. She told me that she liked having me and was wondering if I wanted to start working as a "nurse" instead as the cleaning "lady" As she explained what that would mean and what I'd have to do if i were to take her up on her offer. Quite frankly I did not take me long to say yes. I loved the people that I worked with and the people who lived there and leaving was not an appealing idea.

As school started, so did my "new" job. I just need to tell you something about me before I go on: this was never a job that seemed appealing to me - at all. I have never been the kind of person to change diapers and feed kids, so doing that on adults was not something that I'd every think I would get paid for. I have 3 younger siblings and I NEVER changed a dirty diaper on the two (one is only a year younger on me, so I definitely did not change hers). So to me and my family taking this job was completely out of character, but I so grateful that I did it.

In the past three years I have learned so much about myself and what I can do. I have seen someone greving the loss of a loved one, sitting inconsolable and I have seen genuine happiness in someones face, the kind of happiness that makes you smile all day just thinking about it.Helping people who can't help themselves has changed my perspective and outlook on life and I'm more grateful for the things I get to do just because I'm me and I'm healthy. My experiences here are something I will always and forever cherish and carry with me as my life countinues and new experiences come.

It hurts me to think that this summer will me my last summer here and that I have to say goodbye to the people who have had such a huge impact on my life. I know that I will see them all again when I visit but it won't be that same. I can only hope that I can find such a fantasic work envionment again and that you can do the same, and hopefully some of you have had the pleasure of having the same feeling has I've had going to work. I think it's rare to find something that you can truly and honestly find joy in doing and that can help you grow as an individual,but it is not impossible and not a "one-time-thing".

This might have sounded a bit cheesy, but it is all true.

Until next time, Love CJ

Little Sleep, Lots of coffee & Red Bull

This is not a post about love or how to keep your boyfriend, but how I keep myself from crashing in these times of stress. What I mean by keeping the interest alive is where/what you can focus on to keep yourself going. Maybe you have a dream that you'd really like to come true?

The month of May cannot come soon enough at this point. Right now it's 3.50 AM and the only reason I'm still up is because I have a midterm and a group project and a presentation all due in two days (well, technically one it's Tuesday early - early- morning) and it feels like he stress might take my life at this point. (not that it will!!!). Yes, I'm over exaggerating! But if you are like me and you like to have as much control over your days as possible, I'm sure you have felt the same way at some point in time.  (I wrote this on Tuesday morning!)

I have "lived" at school for the past few days. Staying there from 4 pm to 3 am, trying to get as much done as possible. Now I can't sleep before 3am and I wake up around noon. I can't wait for this to be over so I can get back to a normal sleep schedule.

Only three weeks left until Finals!!

Until next time, Love CJ

Homesickness and to whom it may concern

I have never lived abroad, stayed abroad for more then 3 weeks or lived more then 3 hours away from home. How will it be to live 5000 miles away?

I have no experience with living abroad. Most of the people at my school as taken an exchange year in high school while I was sitting in my room, in my home town. The closest I have ever been to "living abroad" was visiting my Grandmother in Turkey alone when I was 17. I have days where all I can think about is how much I want to go home. I miss knowing every street name, where every corner leads to a familiar place. I know where people live and what the name of the cashier is. This feeling of homesickness is unfamiliar and I don't know how to react to it.

Not only do I miss the comfort of knowing my surroundings, but I miss how people are there. They act so different here and the way they treat others.. I just don't like it. Just because they are from a different part of the country they are - apparently/according to them- better then me or the others who are from my parts of the country. I wonder why this is? What is it that makes you more intelligent then me? they way you speak, the way you dress? What is it? to me you are not better nor are you less then me. I even wonder why you care about that? It's not like is makes a huge difference in you daily life.

I don't like the way you think of me or the community I come from. I feel that I have to defend who I am and why I believe and act the way I do. so why don't you? Sometimes I feel attacked and all I want to do is to tell you to leave me alone and never open you judgemental mouth to me again. But I don't. All I do is fake a smile and move on with my life. In just a few months I'll be far away form you and then all of you judgemental and rude comments will be gone. You won't see this and that is just fine. I don't want you to.

Love CJ

You have some, you loose some

I still keep in touch with some friends from 1th grade but it seems like the older I get the harder it is to keep friendships. 

For the last few months I've been think a lot about what sorts of friends that I have, and the kinds that I'd like to keep.  I've meet so many people this past year that I like to hang out with, but I know that I'll never talk to them again after we all leave for the US. And to be completely honest, I don't know if I want to keep in touch with some of these people. It's not like we know each other that well, and we don't have all that much in common either. It seems like - to me - that the only reason we are "friends" is because we go to the same school, live copse to each other and hang out in the same places. If we had meet at the same time, but under different circumstances I really don't think we'd ever hit it off.
On the other hand, I've met some people that has helped me see thing in a different light. They have given me new perspectives on things. I've been exposed to different culturural aspects of my own country, and I find it very interesting that it is so different considering this country really isn't that big.

but then there are the friends that you love and cherish 

we all have them, or a least one of them. I know I do, and I can't imagine life without them! These are the people you go to with everything, you tell them your dark little secrets. I went on vacation with one of mine and I have never had so much fun! Some I've know for 15 years and other 5 years, but I love and care for them equally. They have kept me sane in times of struggle and confusion.

I hope you have a "person" in your life too.

Until next time, Love CJ

Personality

Are you like me? do you like to take some of the many, many personality tests that are online every-now-and-then? I took one today, and it really hit home. 

So all it took was some yes-no-maybe answers to some questions and BOOM there you are or your personality. Right in front of you, written in paragraphs. So neat and directly explained who you are, what personality traits you have and what that means. I found about this test through a friend from school, so I ventured in to the world of Google and found the same test on Similarminds.com.

Basically all you do is type in your gender and then you say if the statements were very inaccurate to very accurate. Don't worry, there are only about 50 statements to answer and it won't take long.

I - for some reason -  really like these kinds of test. Sometimes they are spot on and other times they're far off. On the test I took today I was told that I had an ISFJ personality. It was quite a long read so I won't bore you with the details, but I found it to be pretty accurate. ISFJs - also called The Nurtures - told me this as some sort of a summary:

Dominant: Introverted Sensing

Auxiliary: Extraverted Feeling

Tertiary: Introverted Thinking

Inferior: Extraverted Intuition

Not that I think this will tell you anything, but I found it to be quite interesting. 
It's not that I expect to get anything out of these sorts of tests, they're online and not really that trustworthy but still. I don't really know how to explain my fascination for it, but some of you might now what I'm talking about. 

Well, Hope to see your lovely faces soon, Love CJ.

Roommate Problems

If you have ever lived with someone who you are not related odds are you know exactly what I'm talking about. 

At the beginning it was fine. We had been friends in high school and living together seemed like it wouldn't be a problem. Two friends living together? Bet you've never heard that go wrong now, have you. When we first moved in at the beginning of August 2013 it seemed like everything would be fine, we knew each others pressure point, what to do and what not to do. We agreed on what parts of the apartment we would be "responsible" for. She took the bathroom and I took the kitchen and we had our own bedrooms to attend to as well. 

So what problems I'm talking about?

Like I said if you have ever had a roommate you know what I'm talking about.  You get comfortable, sloppy and annoying. I like to think of my self as a clean person. I like the kitchen to look a certain way and that goes for the bathroom as well. To me these spaces are for the both of us and therefor they should be clean! I don't care about how messy her room is or how messy mine is, because this is personal space. The kitchen is a place to eat, not to leave you filthy dishes in the sink for 24 hours waiting or hoping that I will do you dirty work for you.
When I make dinner I like to clean up as soon as I'm done eating. Call my crazy but I'd rather not have food all over the counter for hours later.
Without getting in to much detail, it's safe to say that I'm pretty happy we're moving out in about two months. There are times when I don't want to go out of my room of I hear the she is out of hers, just because I don't want to talk to her. That how much she annoys me these days. 

But not everything is bad.

We were friends for about three years prior to this. She was my best friend though-out three years of High school and I find it hard to believe that three years of friendship is gone because of this. I hope that when we move to the US we'll stay in touch no matter where we end up. If she goes to one coast and I the other, so be it. I still care for my friend and can only hope that things will get better when we get some time apart, but i honestly don1t know if it will. We have changed so much since we got here, and I don't think that we are compatible anymore. Time will tell I guess. 

Hope to see all your lovely faces soon, Love CJ

PS: Sorry for the rant. We all need to get things off our chest sometimes, right?

College Choices

College Choices

Like I told you in my last post, I'm moving to the States and with this move comes college. 

I have chosen to apply to two different schools: Adelphi University and University of Arizona. Both good schools and both in areas that I could see myself live in. I already have some friends at Adelphi. They went at my current school, and it would be great to see them again! However Me + snow = no no.. If the opportunity to attend UofA, I'll take it without a doubt. I don't know anyone there with the exaction of one friend that is also applying there, but I think that gives me something that I long for. Something completely, absolutely and terrifyingly new. New people in the desert sounds like something I'd like. 

You see, i have this thing with cold. I DON'T LIKE IT and it does not like me. I will never forget the winter of 2010 because I was so cold in the morning that I had to use the hairdryer to warm my clothes while standing by the oven with my cover (or duvet..) wrap tight around my and my pyjamas. It was horrible. 

So the desert is very tempting not going to deny that. Just to show you what UofA looks like 

(yes, I googled it)

I don't know about you but I'm sold! It's not that Adelphi (the school in New York) isn't good because it really is. The campus - or at least what I've seen and heard of it - looks amazing and let's now forget it is only a forty minute train ride to Manhattan. 

(Googled did this to)

I must seem like a very indecisive person and that is not really the case, but when it comes to choosing between the two I find it very hard. This will hopefully be the place that i will call home for the next few year and it is very important to my that I think about this and go back and fourth like I have. I have so many people telling me what all the pro's and con's are, and I really want to make the best choice possible for me so I take all the advice I can get.

Until the Next Time I See Your Lovely Face, Love CJ

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Here We Go

Hello! I'm not going to tell you much about my self in this post (I like a bit of mystery), but I will tell you why I created this blog.

This whole idea came dawning on me while I was watching a movie in my bedroom. I starter to think about my life and how much it is going to change in these next months, and that I wanted to have a space where I could write down all the things that happen. I - like so many others in this world- have a need to express myself however i have difficulty doing so. While browsing the World Wide Web I made the decision of making this blog to see if this is for me. I might forget about it now and then and I'll play around with different things like style and content for a while (mostly because I think that kind of stuff is a lot of fun) but I have to start somewhere! 

WAIT! why is my life going to change in the upcoming months? 

Well I'm packing my bags, crossing the Atlantic ocean and moving the the United States of America. I know that there a plenty of these kinds of blogs on the internet, but i always enjoyed reading them and figured maybe someone will enjoy reading mine. At the moment I don't know what state I will be moving to this fall, but I have narrowed it down to either New York or Arizona but for now that's all I know. 

I'll end this here (for now) however I will be seeing you again shortly and hopefully this will be as fun for you as it will be for me! 

See your lovely face soon, Love CJ